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• dried apple - 70 calories
• peanut butter - 30 calories

i’m going to work out on the treadmill for 30 minutes and my plan for the rest of the day is coffee. i usually eat in the morning because that’s when i get the most hungry. :/

peanut butter (25 calories)

beef and onions (30 calories)

1/4th of a tuna and mayo sandwhich (40 calories)

calorie total including breakfast: rounding it to 150 calories. ugh DISGUSTING.

i’m drinking tonight with some chickas, i hate thinking about the calories in alcohol but i’m not eating for the rest of today or tomorrow, it’ll be okay… no it wont.

1. green tea (0 calories)
2. 2 small grapes (5 calories)
3. peanut butter (20 calories)

probably somewhere around 185.

had to force myself to eat that much, and now i feel disgusting. ugh. going for a 30-40 minute walk after my mom is done making dinner. 

i told my mom to hide the peanut butter.

(for everyone asking about what I eat in a casual day, this is probably it.)

1. today in the morning i went for a 30 minute walk
2. then i ate 3/4ths a tablespoon of peanut butter(75 calories), and 4 dry fruits (20 calories)
3. i walked for another 30 minutes
4. and then i just had 4 little pieces of broccoli (15 calories) and 3/4ths a tablespoon of peanut butter (75 calories)

total; 185 calories but i also burned about 150 lol i ate too much. i know this cause i’ve been constantly gaining weight this week… i guess i’m just meant to be fat.

tomorrow is going to be a good day.

not eating not eating not eating not eating.

getting fucking laxatives getting fucking laxatives.

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and many more to come, yay :)

• breakfast: dry fruits (50 calories), grapes ( 20 calories), peanut butter (90 calories)
• lunch:
• dinner: nuts & raisins (20 calories) broccoli (12 calories) peanut butter (50 calories)

total intake; 250 calories

calories burned from exercise; 30 LOL

seriously what the fuck am i doing..i’m hating this. i’m so fucking fat. i need to cut down. i’m not losing weight whatsoever. actually gaining. i look fatter and fatter every single day. my boyfriend said he’ll buy me laxatives, i ran out. i’m panicking. ugh.

• breakfast:
• lunch: 4 crackers(60 calories) mini orange (20 calories)
• dinner: peanut butter (80 calories) nutella (25 calories) dry fruits (25 calories) grapes (10 calories)

total: 230-250 calories

calories burned from exercise; 150

UGH FUCK. no. no. no.

tomorrow has to be better. chelsea, you can fucking do this.

intake tuesday:

• breakfast: can’t remember but i know it was a binge of like 250 calories
• lunch: nothing
• dinner: nothing

intake wednesday:

• breakfast: vegetables(45 calories) peanut butter (50 calories)
• lunch: nothing
• dinner: nothing

intake thursday:

• breakfast: vegetables (25 calories) peanut butter (70 calories)
• lunch: nothing
• dinner: fruit (40 calories)

intake friday:

• breakfast: fruit (40 calories) peanut butter (50 calories)
• lunch: dry apples (150 calories), blueberries (40 calories)
• dinner: nothing

(UGH TOO MUCH^)

intake saturday:

• breakfast: nutella (150 calories)
• lunch: nutella, dry apples (200 calories)
• dinner: some grain rice shit, carrots, green beans (UNKNOWN BUT PROBABLY 300 calories)

( TOO FUCKING MUCH OMG ^ )

throughout the days, i had mints, gum, tic tacs and diet pepsi as well.

total intake for 5 days: i’ll round it to about 1,500 calories

ew disgusting. i am fat. i need to cut down.

so burnt out. yesterday i ate breakfast at 11am and didn’t eat til today at 3pm. i had 40 calories in vegetables and 40 calories in peanut butter, now it’s time for bed and my boyfriend went to go get me a diet pepsi. yay.

i had 7 dry fruits dipped in a little bit of peanut butter for breakfast

i’m going to go for an hour long speed walk

sip on my diet pepsi all day

and i’m not planning on eating tonight, because i’m too fat.